i hate it when i go to sleep before midnight and then i wake up at 2 in the morning with a feeling like a nuclear bomb went off in my stomach because of something that i ate late in the evening and it caused delayed digestion and i can't sleep any more and have to just wait until the gut does its thing.
Because you still have hope that this war will end with your honor intact. Stand in the ashes of a trillion dead souls, and ask the ghosts if honor matters. The silence is your answer.