It doesn't matter. If you want a gf that badly and that's what's motivating to stop being fat then go for it.
I don't shy away from admitting that I like huge boobs, a pretty face and that she is kind. It's no different than women wanting men that make lots of money, are fit and hold a position of power even if women won't admit it themselves.
@Mommy yeah, true.
@Mommy I wonder if I worry too much about being a good person or appearing good that I trample on myself too much