i find myself in a position where, i have to remind myself, that God is not real.

I do believe, you can't go too deep into the occult without believe but, in my past experiences, when i was horrible situations, and i prayed and begged him to get me out, he did not responde.

i had to crawl myself out of does hells, and that where i made my decision, is better not to believe, that way i force myself to act.

and i know this is not something new but, one thing is been told, another is feeling it.