Had a dream about my ex last night, how I told her how much I sacrificed still chose her, how even though I wish I never met her, never want to see her again a part of me will always still care. She tries to murder me with a knife several times in the dream which isn’t exactly accurate but conveys the deep reality feelings of fear I felt during some moments during the relationship. Doesn’t matter how much you bottle up feelings they rise to the surface eventually.