@TenaciousGoat Fictional writer yes I could do it if I wasn’t a alcoholic redneck biker,Trust yep been there done that,pleasure and pain come in waves and I ride them, it doesn’t matter and I have no control and this is my philosophy,I personally can’t do anything everything is predetermined,You speak with Hope try not to lose that,for me that is not reality,It may seem depressing to you because, I assume you are young still,grab the world by the horns and fuck it while you can