@houseoftolstoy Alright alright alright I slept on it. My dead burning spirit has revived it self back to what it once was probably more fiery than it was in the past. She rejected my proposal for more than friends and well I know for a fact that is the best outcome for me at least. There is something about being rejected that sets my soul a fire with the will to be generally better in things rather than the crushing despair I always imagine will happen.

Look I would have liked her to have the same feelings but I dont know how to explain it, it feels like part of me has woken from the dream again to fill in another part of me that has been asleep for sometime. Let me tell you though its that part of me that wants to live more than everyone else around me. So it may be that more misadventures will happen more frequently.

So in conclusion of this Ted Talk, I thank you for your words, though what has been awakened in me is a familiar fren who has rather spectacularly bad ideas. Meaning I will bother you later about your perspective on another matter that I find rather takes up much space in my mind.