@Tfmonkey Long story short or it is that I got doxxed, had people threaten me and my son, accuse me of terrible things which got back to the wrong people ending in pretty shitty ultimatums being thrust onto me.
They are currently stored in a safe locaiton but not having them in my life made everything much worse for me.
Having had Rei here has meant my sleep pattern as well as a lot of other things are much better again.