Since I am not a trustworthy source how about you study the writings of the Ashkenazi Jew named Steven Hasan instead
If you are afraid to talk to people who disagree with you then you are not ready to talk to me yet
You need to over come your information phobia
Here is his website freedom of mind
"Hassan was raised in a Jewish family"
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Steven_Hassan
I highly recommend the self proclaimed Jew Steven Hassan's books