@YoMomz I was 18 man in hindsight , maybe fear is powerful even the dogs knew it was a life or death situation there was 6 feds in the front porch on a rather steep hill maybe I could have been in Valhalla,but I am a Christian even though my roommates were odinist I guess I was the weak link

@Scubbie - Well real talk: There is no shame in fear. Only a madman or retard is truly without fear.

At 18, I was kinda both... 😅 But back to you: weak link? I dunno... It depends on a lot of things I wouldn't/couldn't know. But you're still here (as am I). And all we can do, on any given day, at any given moment, is our best.

If shame belongs with fear, then I'd say it's only true if one allows fear to prevent them from doing what needs done. And FWIW, that doesn't sound like what happened.

@YoMomz The Odinist we’re hiding under beds and in closets I was at the front door with the dogs but this event has shaped my life I was followed by agents I use to make it my weekend to drive them around and lose them in the ghetto I have felt like a enemy of the state since the 90’s my relationships suffered I was considered a Nazi before it was the norm

@Scubbie - Well, you're not gonna win a fight with six feds. That's just unrealistic.

You were into some shit, and it went bad. That happens.

I've been in some shit myself - a warzone, and I've had local SWAT at my door too. That was a bad day, I gotta say.

But I learned from it. And if I ever decide to rebel, I'll know better what's required to succeed. But more likely, I would just choose a different course for as long as I can.

Best skill in life? Might be making the best of bad things.🍻

@Scubbie - I mean, did your friends expect you to get in a shootout with the feds? 'cause that's not friendly.

It sounds like a lot of poor decisions led up to that. And you know what? That's pretty normal. Life is a learning process. 💁🏻‍♂️ We start as babies, and if we're doing things right, we get better as we get older.

If you met an 18yr old today who was fucking up, what advice would you give? Probably wise words, I'd bet.

So look to the mirror, and give those wise words to the 18yo there.

@YoMomz the feds rented the house across from us and we’re survelling us for 3 months we didn’t even know it I didn’t know my roommate was on the run,he did 3 yrs in a fed pen for from what I understand a bar fight with some queers there may have been a Molotov cocktail involved at a gay club,but the real reason was the guy was a extreme talent,artist musician influential to the narrative they didn’t want so the made it federal hate crime to get him,When I was 18 I wasn’t fucking up

@Scubbie - "...I wasn't fucking up"

Well, I'm not trying to be ass, so I'll just say this: it is impossible to learn from our mistakes, if we refuse to admit to our mistakes. 🫡