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On route I experienced two nigger moments.
The first; I was delivering upstairs and I heard the ceiling bird outside her door. The second delivering in the dark because it got dark at 5:00 pm. today. I set the package down, these two black ladies are in their car and the one in the passenger asks me; can you help her out, she’s pregnant? I said No. I then muttered about delivering packages and left.

@RoninGrey I appreciate it brother, hope things are going well for you as well.

I have been using weed to cope with work. Just a little to take the edge off. However I’m failing to see any downsides, with alcohol I’m hungover and groggy and too much leads to vomitting. With weed I can just have mini panic attacks and strengthen my mental fortitude.

However once you can let go of the past you can evolve new habits and become a different person using the lessons from the past.

I think the hardest lesson to learn is letting go of the past, because you have to let yourself die. You have to let a version of yourself die and be replaced by you.

My current project is my small apartment, I want to build in into something I’m proud of! Perhaps even invite my friend’s over. Using the money from my new job I was able to pay off my car so I don’t have to worry about compounding interest.

My new job difficulty has plateaued, I have been doing standard parcel routes since last week. Today I actually felt bored. Delivering the packages to 182 stops, starting at 10:20 to 7:30 pm. and I’m bored. I didn’t eat anything except breakfast and I just powered through the entire route. My own strength is surprising me, my mental fortitude is strong.

I see relationships as power dynamics. Love is a word used for manipulation to have you use your energy and time on her instead of building.

@ArmchairEconomist01 3.3% I think