I get what you're saying 😏 I was able to read books at 3, and was reading at a college level around 5th or 6th grade, scored high on the ASVAB at the recruiter and they told me I could have any job I wanted in the military. I was never a math wiz though. I think it was ruined for me because my step dad was a hard ass about everything, particularly school, never much liked school to begin with because I always wanted to explore and learn what I wanted to and not be forced to learn whatever someone was teaching in a class setting. He would breath down my neck during homework and yell loogies onto my worksheets. Basically losing his cool like a childish prick and not understanding he was only compounding the problem by making me shut down and everything out. My type of smarts is an altogether different type, not so much the academic setting shit that bores the hell out of me. My connection with the universe and everything has always been presented through my interactions with everything in my day to day life. I've always been the introverted type that always had to do everything my own way, would never conform in settings where people were required to basically fall in line and behave like a flock of sheep. The obviously intentional brainwashing never had any effect on my so I regularly got the stick and never really seen any carrot. I also seen the pointlessness of it all because I knew I was being groomed for slavery. There was obviously the haves who weren't really doing much of anything at all while the have nots were always breaking their backs. I didn't want to be a grunt even though that's where everyone in my life has been pushing me and I've pushed back and even call out all the bullshit. I always felt this shit was a dystopia. So as the collapse nears and the truth about everything is coming out I feel more and more vindicated about my obstinance. While others became emotionally attached to the house of cards constructed during a miniscule blip in history I knew it wasn't the be all to end all system, the real system that's in nature and the universe itself is where I've been dwelling. People are gonna be horrified when they realize they were just pawns in a get rich quick scheme where everything they were told was a lie and were duped into carrying water for the most evil demons on the planet. Their mass compliance has been proven to be dangerous for the rest of us