@basedbagel for self defense. Get the largest capacity with the largest caliber you are **comfortable carrying** that you *will* carry, EVERY SINGLE DAY. People get large guns thinking it has "stopping power" and end up leaving it at home because it is too uncomfortable. Aside: No lights or lasers; bulky/unnecessary. Learn to hold the pistol steady (grip strength) and work the trigger without shifting the muzzle (single action/double action and reset without "slapping" trigger)