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Music Post

Killswitch Engage
I believe- https://youtu.be/LgS-fkFOsRA?si=X2l3kY9UIZn0Vx__

What is change? Change is the natural process construction and reconstruction of particles due to everything vibrating. Things are moved. In humans our change is shaped by our perception. Our perception drives our will which causes the ripple effect. Only through action does it take physical shape. A physical action for a physical reaction it makes perfect sense.

What does this all mean then?

Simple use your imagination to create what you want, act upon it, will it into existence by using force. This is not manifesting. You must act to shape. You must give to get. Newton’s third law.

The only constant in life is the process. Or change. The will to power is your ability to shape your reality with your actions. The rest of the world will conform to your will, because you have the strongest will. The strong rule, the weak follow. Life is a competition after all, but it’s only a competition of the self. The moment is all that exists. Life is but a series of moments created by your mind, but your emotions plant seeds that make the memory. Memories happen in real time.

What is this forbidden knowledge the apple held? I think it’s pattern recognition. You have to realize if you don’t change something it stays that way constantly. Newton’s first law of motion. If something is negatively affecting your self interest, you must change or go insane. Insanity in its final form is the death of the self. Your energy is then given back to be created into something else. Again energy cannot be created nor destroyed only re-shaped.

I had some thoughts while high
- Will to power
- Childbirth must be extremely painful
- Thought<Actions<Habits<Lifestyle<You
- Everything is a cycle
- The nature of give & take.

Had this thought before; The forbidden apple in the Bible is actually marijuana. You have to realize weed naturally grows in nature and someone at some point inhaled the smoke from it caused by a natural fire. Perhaps it was the key that separates us from every other animal…

Weed Post

I smoked a bowl on Saturday. Learned how to properly smoke out of a bowl. You need a grinder. Break the flower with hands, put between blades, twist grinder, falls through hole onto a filter, use the weed on the filter for your bowl. The stuff that falls through the filter is keef. It’s essentially weed seasoning.

The weed I smoked was very strong, I didn’t smoke my entire bowl. I had intense anxiety for 15 minutes and then came down slowly. The feeling left me appreciating sobriety

Pt. 3

You don’t think your brain can be tricked by having sex with a doll, but I assure you it can I believe I felt the vasopressin being released after I climaxed and I find myself thinking about my doll and wanting more intercourse. Remember in sex you don’t feel what your partner feels, you feel what you do. Sex with a doll is essentially the same as with a woman from what I can tell mentally.

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Pt 2.

Use plastic douche mixed with anti bacterial soap. Rinse with hot water afterwards, used a rod towel, and plastic brush to pull water out laid back in box.

Ending thoughts; A 70 lbs. doll is heavy, but proper lifting and balancing the doll’s weight helps a lot. Cleaning isn’t that hard, pay attention to the length of limbs so you don’t break a porcelain bar of soap holder like I did. Condoms are pointless, they rip due to the TPE… Use lube, more than you think. Talk dirty to your waifu.

Used my doll today
Figure I write down experience

The first thing I did was lift her legs and arms as best as I could to a fetal position. Then carry her onto my white fleece blanket. The guide highly recommended to use light colors to prevent staining and no hard surfaces. So I did that.

Struggled to get the head on the doll, heating rods were garbage, hot water when cleaning warms doll pussy up faster than a heater rod.
Did doggy style, wore condom, condom broke due to how tight the doll was