@Stahesh @DoubleD The problem with "Reality as Will" (Schopenhauer) is where does your "will" come from? Why do you desire the things you do?
You cannot separate your will from your function, and thus your purpose within the universe.
You struggle to assert you will over reality because you see flowing with the universe as submission, but this is illusion.
you can will control over your breath, holding it for a time, but let go and you will find you breathe all on your own subconsciously.
@DoubleD @Stahesh you want to do that which you were made to do. The things you want are directly related to your role as a human being.
Put aside your desire for material possessions and ask yourself what you want to do.
It probably has to do with mental stimulation, thinking, and creativity. Why?
Because humans think. That's what the role of the human is among the animals.