when i was younger, i would daydream of running away, and sometimes i did but, the thought of abandoning my mother kept me around.
when i want to tell a boss to fuck himself, to break the living shit out of a coworker, i stop to think, how would my action affect her.
for so long have i biting the bullet, simply because i did not wanted my action to affect her. but i feel like there's a lot of people with high self-esteem, that should not have high self-esteem.
the crippling of the island only started to affect me when, things were getting back to normal. everything was becoming the routing i hated, and not the chaos i enjoyed.
having to follow the orders of the sheep who, someone felt pride in the boring daily routing, felt pride being a slave for unknown hours.
while i graved the chaos, maybe this is why i want to be homeless, i want war to start. i want the chaos, i want an excuse to simply be myself. and excuse to simply do what i want.
i envy does who could pull self-deletion. at this point, i deserve the hell fire, for even having hope things would get better.
i can't handle regular life, it's not for me, everyday i pray, for a world ending event or something.
still remember the pandemic fondly, i remember when Maria pass over Puerto Rico and it crippled the island to no end.
i felt like a hunter, when i went looking for food and water, wherever i could find it. going out and get the food of the day cuz, no fridge.
Printing money to pay got government and government assets = not inflationary
printing money to fix infrastructure, lowing cost of living, health care aka, helping the private sector = inflationary.
Pandemic
Government got paid more than they normally gets paid = good for the economy.
People got paid for lost work: run away inflation.
double standards everywhere.
Co-parenting will be the future heading forward.
as woman use divorce as a tool, men should see it too, sure, you might be one to pay for child support, and in some state alimony but, it's better than being in a relationship that never was.
why do i say this? cuz some father never wanted to leave, but the woman did, and he had zero say in this. if they don't feel like they should stick around, why should you?
having a child does not really change your life, its just another thing to deal.
i don't fuck my girlfriend cuz i don't want to get her pregnant, and am being shamed not by woman, but from guys...
shamed cuz i rather make out with her and finger her then stick my dick in her and giving her the chance of sleeping with someone else and getting her pregnant and telling me its my child...
the biggest enemy a man has, its another man...
am starting to hear a lot of people who came from communist countries say
" How can the US be worse than my country? back in my country i worked for less hours, and could live in a fucking shack, but here i have to crash in my car cuz the shack in sell is $100k. "
a guy from the former soviet country of Georgia saying how Americans rather die than pay medical bills cuz, they are too fucking expensive. that some people rather call a pull truck to get them to the hospital, then an ambulance.
imagen being a Cuba in the 1950s, seen how Havana was becoming a Las Vegas in Cuba, coming was coming to the country, tourist, exposure.
then a fucking " rebel " coming by the name of Fidel Castro, telling us " Batista will bleed us dry, we need to take what is ours. "
then 50 years later, Cuba is stuck in the 50s... while the mafia funded casinos and resorts are abandon lol...
but somehow the US has more pull in Cuba? are you sure Castro was not a US agents leading a proxy war.
The mafia instead of hording all that wealth, they put it back into the economy, they build the modern world, they build Las Vegas, Hollywood.
Hell, they owned Cuba, Cuba for the Mafia, was Panama for the Elite. but then the CIA Agent Castro started the revolution...
for an independed Nation, the US sure as a lot of pull there.
struggle, endure and contend for that alone are the sword of one who defied death.